a gap and a hello

I missed last month's blog and I am very almost missing the boat on this one, but a few points of interest ought to be documented for my own records:

• I have a job for a month in the Basque Country as an English language monitor
• I am going to Barcelona for a few days and will meet Lindsey there for wine and hot days
• I have finally lit the candles I bought
• I have now been to the Termas and must admit they were lovely
• I almost committed self-food-poisoning by almost not cooking my chicken properly
• I have become slightly addicted to Men Behaving Badly on YouTube
• I have made a list of life goals in my Moleskin
• I have been subjected to quite awkward socio/romantic ordeals
• I have been living with unwashed clothes for over a week and am even disgusted at myself.

And these are the main points of progress in my Iberian element of my year abroad. I am also more or less always too warm, have the best part of a bottle of wine in my fridge and am in the 'lazy-git' phase of the month, which results mostly in me putting off my essay for Freiburg more and more. I have some introduction, but it is highly possible I shall delete all this and start again later.

I am also starting to worry about my final year at Edinburgh. I am constantly told it is the best and worst. I need a place of my own. Somehow. I am also trying to drag out some advice and constantly being told to "think about things more". I am 95% sure I want to do a medieval topic, but it's not the easiest thing in the world finding one that really appeals at heart. Spending time with Catherine has been eye-opening. She's so excellent at telling me what to expect, in some kind of way. The more time I spend here the more I realise how much I can learn from other people and how much I should learn from others. It's quite wonderful. Spain has been so good for me. I wish there was a way I could return for a good period of time. Nevertheless I will continue to endeavour in most aspects of my life. An unexpected financial windfall has been much appreciated and will definitely aid my final year woes. I am fundamentally terrified. Perhaps I need therapy. Or reassurance. Or both.

I am seeking, I am striving, I am in it with all my heart.